Piss and Vinegar

One of my favorite movie quotes is from No Country For Old Men. It is at the scene where a car is on fire, the Sheriff (Tommy Lee Jones) describes how he sees the entire crime scene from start to finish, just by looking at the car...and he is 100% right. His young deputy tells him "Well, that's very linear Sheriff." His simple reply "Time has a way of flattening a man." Yes, yes it does.

I know what the Sheriff was feeling....he knew what had happened and he also understood the implications of what was to come. Being at the end of his career, after more than 30 years on the job, he was tired. No need for needless conversation or to contemplate stuff that just didn't happen. Focus on what lies ahead.

What are the impacts of living such a life? For me, not good. It has gotten pretty flat around my house. The wife and I live in separate parts of the house and speak only out of necessity really. Not sure how much longer she will hang around, and honestly, I can't really blame her for leaving. It is a mother fucker of a thing to live with.

Word to all those that have served through the thick of things a few years back and have held it together. Double word to those that have not so able to hold it together. Keep after it, don't quit, we need you. Hell, I need you....because I want to quit....and if you quit, I can't quit, because I'll have to carry your rucksack, and that is some bullshit!

It all sort of takes the piss and vinegar out of a man after a while.

Peace